The Strikes from Gossip Folks and The Shield of My Heart

As most of the people already know, I made the decision to drop out from school, and choose to pursue my dance career.  Of course, as expected, there's a lot of judgments against me, even from the person I love. The biggest challenge I face for the decision I made, is my family and relatives. It is always hard and never easy for me since what I believe is against the family and relatives in my hometown.  After I accepted Christ in KK, my dance hometown around 2 years ago, my life change. However, right life is never easy. 

Every time I go back to my hometown, the struggles always in my heart. The struggles from the pressures and stress I faced as the eldest children, the pressures that I grew up with since I'm a child. I always told myself, no matter what and how the people in hometown treated me, never hate them, love them. 

Months ago, I was so excited because of my first dance trip to Philippine. I finally took the step of faith to call my dad about my decision and about the dance trip. He agreed! At that moment, I praise the Lord and my heart is full of joy because finally my parents agreed me to become a dancer. I was so happy and pack my bags to go back to my hometown before I go to Philippine. Everything seems to be right...but not until I reach my hometown. I still remember I sat on a sofa, my dad, whom I love; my relatives whom I love; some uncles and aunties and even cousins, surrounded me, tried to stop me from going Philippine. The words that describing how bad I am as an example for sister, and how religious I am when I mention about God.

It took a big step and the biggest courage I never have before to made that decision. Unfortunately, what some of the people see, is how I'm not well to plan my living, how I destroy my own testimony, how I'm not think and honor my parents, how I'm not worry for my siblings etc.

I love to dance. I admit that in entertainment field it's very hard to have a stable income and every single day is a challenging day. We do need money in life, but doesn't mean we work our life for money, but for the Love. Dance is the passion in my heart that no one else in this world can take away from, It is planted in the heart. Despite of the negative judgement, I thank God so much for some of my brothers and sisters who still believe in me and support me. 

 Everyone has a choice in life, don't let the fear stop from being who we are. :)